remember when this never happened?
remember when this never happened?
i barely update this thing, but i always creep everyone elses. i like to read them. and i like to have it just in case i wanna write about whats on ma mindddd.
well. the first week of school is over!
well i ony have a total of like 5 hours but still. i enjoy my classes and such. but someone of them just have a really awkaarrrd group of people. but hey im friendly with everyone so it shouldnt be too bad. also im really excited for music lab this year. it sounds like its going to be super fun.
also after school today:
alex tong tells me hes coming to pick us up.they dont come, and they make us meet them somewhere. idk who is even coming. so me sarah ripps and andrea all walk. get there. see a bunch of guys in uniform. CHECK. roll call: alex, besnik, fenimore, felix, matt.
moral of the day:
couples making out are awk.
i dont like to be hated just cause i go to ferrer.
depressing people need to be happy.
awk days make me laugh.
overall great day
here it goes. woot woot.
Hi guys. I know I don’t usually write a lot, I just repost things from other blogs, but I am really in the mood to let some things out. School is starting this thursday, and I am really not looking forward to it at all! I can honestly count my REAL friends in my town on my fingers. I actually have a lot of friends though, and I love them all to death. The problem is, they’re all over NY, NJ, and PA, and I don’t get to see them all very often. If i could control my educational life, I would be home schooled, or just go to another school. All I want to do is have fun, but i can’t do that because i hate everyone in this town so much. I’m sorry i don’t drink or smoke, and I find it incredibly stupid and immature the way these people do it. Not only do they think they’re awesome, they have to take pictures of it all to “show off”. I actually went to a party once where someone was taking a picture and the girl went “wait!”, grabber her beer can, held it up to her face, just to get it in the picture. If you’re going to drink, okay cool have fun, but don’t be stupid about it. Everyone tries to be something they are not, and I really don’t fit in with all this bullshit. All I want to do is hangout with my friends, mainly in New York City, and go to concerts. Yeah, I know, it seems lame, but that is all I care about right now. I’m seventeen years old, I’m supposed to be having fun, not hating everyone and everything. I just want this summer to last forever, because I don’t think i can deal with going back to school. My senior year is supposed to be the best year, but for me, it’s just going to suck. I hate the fact that I can’t enjoy it, but there is really nothing I can do about it. What hurts the most is that I used to be such good friends with everyone I hate now. I know I have changed a lot too, so I cannot say much, but I wish they didn’t change for the worse. My favorite channel is Disney Channel, I am so immature, but I still feel like I am more mature than all of them, actually I know I am. I just wanted to let that all out, and if anyone is in the same situation or has any advice, feel free to let me know, because I would love that :)
i just wanted to say i love you so so so muc. and i kno exactly how you feel like seriously. just ignore all the bullshit. youre MUCH BETTER than them, and im serious. youre amazing girl <3
okay. so well do a mini sum up of today and yesterday.
well the day before yesterday my friend nina came back form serbia/italy so me nina and jess hung out all day. we went to breakfast at Big Daddys, which is tradition for us ladies. they always make fun of me casue i never can eat that much. but the portions are like gigantious! so its not my fault!! then we went to union sqaure and went shopping at urban and forever 21. it was pretty fun. nina got 2 dresses, a skirt and a shirt, and jess got a skirt. i helped them get sales on the stuff from urban…but thats a story for a different day.
then we headed back to jessicas house. tried to order pinkberry but it would take to long. at 4 jessicas dad drove us to WALMART in long island. it was SOSOSO fun. we had liek an hour and a half to shop. we bought chips, popcorn and zebra cakes. and ate it while we shopped for school stuff, and miley & max, and allllll that fun stuff. it was actually really crowded. we left at 7ish.
so we drove back. laughed smiled giggled. jessicas dad dropped us off at the tram (para nina). then nina waited with me untill besnik came to meet with me. this was a long day as you can see.
we really just walekd around as usually. he made me walk to times sqaure. along the way we went to barnes and noble to use the bathroom. womens restroom didnt work. shucks. so i sit and read. im liek where the freak is besnik what is tkaing so long. he texts me “did you fall in?” no besnik im reading cause the bathroom doesnt work. make himfind me in the kids section. then we are heading out. spot JONAS calender that i have never seen before. go over to look at it. he grabb be and pushes me all the way to the stairs. hes no fun. that fake joe.
then we go to another barnes and noble cause i still needed to pee. YAY bathroom works. go to bathroom. woo thats nice. besniks reading about sex while he waits for me. chill stuff i know.
anyway we continue to walk to times sq. besnik says we must go in toys r us. so we go in! woo. we go around play with all the stuff. besnik thinks hes cool touching everything in the store. i beg and force him to go on the ferris wheel with me. he says yes. finally. there is no line. score. i have always wanted to go on this thing. i went once. when i was like 5 but that doesnt count. we go on and wee go in the m&m boxy thingie. it goes around like 8 times. they make us take a picture. i smile cheesy. mbaahahaha. we are also sitting with this brisitsh couple. besnik makes a joke what it we keep going and going really fast forever. couple laughs. they were so cute.
then we finally get of. besnik goes and plays with the myachi guy. hes not so bad.. he ends up buying one. the guy selling was my BFF eternally. cause i told him he was legit. good times.
then i make besnik walk me almostallthewayhome. we pass alot of weird people. and talk about alot of stuff.
get home. 10:30. super tired. stay up.
go to beach. read. eat. get off train. go to kmart for more school supplies cause im gay. then borders to get HM movie and Fame Sountrack. lovelovelove. come home. shower. dance around, and now im writing this.
i should be reading some more. well see.
this was a long one. sorry guys .
okay so basically. this is going to be a short one.
but i think the only reason i want to be in love and have someone is becasue of love songs. they make it seem like the best thing ever. and i just want to feel the way these people do when they are singing and belting these songs. also when you rbeak up. you et to have that girl power rock on WOOO feeling. and ofc there are songs appropriate for that as well.